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How It Goes

So I've been at Antharia for a little over two months, and what a ride it has already been!  There have been good days, bad days, sick days, slow days, fast days, and more.  I think I've had my most eventful week this week, though, and even had what I feel has been one of the scariest moments I've ever had at any job I've had.  What happened really isn't as important as the realization that came to me during this ordeal.

So when the Antharia team came to a resolution, I discovered what an incredible thing the human heart is.  I remember biology class and learning about how it ticks.  I've seen healthy ones and unhealthy ones, and have seen some of the technologies available these days that are used to try to save a heart.  There are surgeries, drugs, etc.  Sometimes, these interventions help the heart, but sometimes, they don't.  And so... the inevitable future of the human heart is that it stops.  Completely.  Sometimes it's because the heart got sick.  Maybe it was a horrible accident.  The wrong medicines you've been taking. Or maybe it just got old.  There really isn't anything that you can do about it.  No more surgery, no more drugs.  It's OVER. And that's just how it goes.

So.... it's probably the same concept with other things in life... right?  All I'm saying is.. no matter how important something may be to you, it is eventually going to stop at some point.  It's not that you WANT it to stop.  I mean, you could even try to do a lot of things to save it.  You know, like with the heart.  You pound on the chest with CPR, shock them with the defibrillator, crack open the chest to see what's going on... but in the end, it's something that's just out of your hands.  You can pound, shock, and crack whatever it is for as long as you want to, but it's not going to bring it back to life.  You can't save everything.  It's something that you can't control because it's human nature for things to end at a certain point in time.  And that's just how it goes.

So in that case, I guess I've learned to not dwell on any pains of letting go.  The hard part isn't letting go. The hard part is actually getting our money!

--Paula San Gabriel

Posted by Paula San Gabriel on May 15, 2008 at 01:28 am

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